My Last Chemo

I can’t believe my last round of chemo is tomorrow. I’ll have spent 21 hours getting chemo infusions and 39 hours freezing my head to keep my hair. This season brought a lot of hardship and a little bit of joy.

I experienced nausea, dehydration, head aches, and many other physical side effects. I had sleepless nights and dark thoughts. I faced hardship in my marriage. I burst into tears at a girls night. I had to pause and breathe to get up a flight of stairs. I cried on the floor of the hospital bathroom. I felt sorry for myself a bit more often than I’d like to admit.

I also received countless encouraging gifts, notes, and meals from family and friends. I laughed a little harder and felt a little deeper. I fell in love with yoga and drawing. I learned to stop living in the past and future. I stopped planning and started taking it all in.

It has been a wild ride and I hope I never have to do this again. I hate so much of what chemo brought but I’m hoping that in a few short weeks I can say it saved my life. I’m taking a few weeks off Instagram to get my clear headspace for surgery but I’ll be back soon to tell you all about it

hilary schleier